I'll Try To Explain

In 'I'll Try To Explain,' 9TAILS delves into the complexities of self-expression and the internal battles that come with it. The song opens with the artist discussing his efforts to improve his craft, from tweaking his lyrics to refining his mixing. Despite these efforts, he feels that his work often goes unnoticed or unappreciated. This sentiment is further emphasized by his use of substances, which he admits to using excessively, almost as a coping mechanism. The line 'I should take it easy, I choose not to' highlights his conscious decision to continue down this path, even though he knows it might not be the healthiest choice.

The song takes a darker turn as 9TAILS expresses feelings of frustration and hopelessness. He questions the validity of optimistic statements like 'everything is possible,' especially when he hasn't yet achieved the success he desires. This skepticism is captured in lines like 'You say tomorrow's sunny but you ain't even see the sun yet,' which reflect his doubt and impatience. The artist even contemplates extreme measures, such as taking his own life, to escape his mental anguish. This raw honesty provides a stark look into his mental state, making the song a powerful expression of his struggles.

9TAILS also addresses the criticism he faces, both from others and from himself. He acknowledges that his music often revolves around his internal thoughts and problems, which might not be universally appealing. However, he remains unapologetic, stating that he creates music primarily for himself. This defiance is evident in lines like 'I make all my shit for me I'm barely getting bread,' where he emphasizes his independence and dedication to his art, regardless of external validation. The song serves as a candid exploration of the artist's mind, filled with self-doubt, frustration, and a relentless drive to express himself authentically.