Darlin'

Even though you know that you never said it right
I don't want you know. Not just to be polite
If you figured the words, you wouldn't let them go
If you worked up the nerve, you'd say it like a joke

I don't know why time won't let me go back twice
I know that's bending the rules, but don't that work sometimes?
I don't want you to ask what I am doing here
Nineteen-something-and nine, that was a different year

I've been here too long
Would you like time on your own
If I'm imposing on you
Well it's only cause I had nothing to do

You tell me you know, like all your thoughts are facts
Like no-one else can see that everyone's in drag
Go ahead and go, I have got nowhere to be
Go ahead and perform your personality
I just want you to know that if you don't come back
I don't want you to change, I never felt like that

So I'm not gonna ask you to apologize
Think you mighta mistook me for a different guy

I've been alone for such a long time
I've been alone for such a long time, darlin
If you miss a beat, would it be mine?
Cause I been alone for such a long time darlin

You stood in the door. Watched as I wept but loneliness suits me

Just a lie that you told with my name in quotes
There's always something in me that comes around too slow
Have to let you go now I have to let you be
There was some part of you that never wanted me

That won't happen again and I can take your blame
If you were reading my thoughts you'd see the ways I've changed
That was somebody else living another life
Think it's time that I left the thought of it behind

I've been alone for such a long time
I've been alone for such a long time, darlin
If you miss a beat, would it be mine?
Cause I been alone for such a long time darlin

I've been alone for such a long time
I've been alone for such a long time, darlin
If you miss a beat, would it be mine?
Cause I been alone for such a long time darlin

No use in me calling for you
I bet you forgot
My name