Sintomas de Suicidio

AneurismA's song 'Sintomas de Suicidio' delves deep into the harrowing experience of someone grappling with severe mental anguish and suicidal thoughts. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a mind tormented by an overwhelming sense of emptiness and hopelessness. The repeated phrase 'Sintomas dentro de mi mente me crean un vacío de sentimiento sin calma' underscores the relentless nature of these feelings, suggesting a void that cannot be filled and a peace that remains elusive. This repetition emphasizes the cyclical and inescapable nature of the protagonist's suffering.

The song's narrative progresses to a desperate plea for relief, as the protagonist describes opening their body in search of a remedy that no one can provide. This metaphorical act of self-dissection highlights the depth of their despair and the lengths to which they are willing to go to find solace. The lines 'No pienso, ni suspiro, ni razón existe en mi' reflect a state of numbness and detachment from reality, where even the basic functions of thought and breath seem meaningless. The protagonist's connection to a 'control apparatus' and being 'doped and demented' further illustrate a sense of being trapped and manipulated, unable to escape their mental torment.

The chorus, 'Son mis síntomas de suicidio,' serves as a stark declaration of the protagonist's condition. The yearning to 'fly' and find a place to 'take off' symbolizes a desire for freedom from their pain, yet the absence of a guiding light or salvation leaves them stranded in their suffering. The final lines, 'Mi angustia del miedo a la muerte,' reveal a paradoxical fear of death despite the overwhelming desire to escape life. This duality captures the complex emotions of someone on the brink of suicide, torn between the fear of the unknown and the unbearable weight of their current existence.