SAUDADE DE MIM :( (part. Number Teddie)

Ariah's song "SAUDADE DE MIM :( (feat. Number Teddie)" delves deep into the emotional turmoil of losing oneself in a relationship. The lyrics poignantly express a sense of disorientation and emptiness, as the narrator grapples with the loss of their inner light and identity. The repeated questioning of where their 'brilho' (shine) has gone and the lamentation of being in a 'fossa' (pit) for an indeterminate amount of time highlights the depth of their despair. This sense of loss is not just about the relationship but about a fundamental part of themselves that they feel has been stolen or eroded away.

The chorus, with its repeated cry of 'Ai que saudade de mim' (Oh, how I miss myself), underscores the yearning for the person they were before the relationship. This phrase captures the essence of 'saudade,' a Portuguese word that conveys a deep emotional state of nostalgic longing for something or someone that is absent. The narrator's realization that they want themselves back, and their determination to reclaim what was lost, is a powerful statement of self-empowerment amidst the pain. The imagery of breaking down a door to retrieve what was left behind symbolizes a desperate and forceful attempt to regain their lost self.

The song also touches on the false reassurances often given during times of emotional distress. The lines about being told to calm down and that 'this too shall pass' reflect the frustration with platitudes that do little to alleviate the ongoing pain. The repetition of 'me devolve' (give me back) at the end of the song emphasizes the urgency and desperation of the narrator's plea. This song is a raw and honest portrayal of the struggle to reclaim one's identity and sense of self-worth after a damaging relationship.