Eulogy

Ayesha A. Madon's song 'Eulogy' is a candid and unfiltered exploration of self-perception, societal expectations, and the desire for genuine remembrance. The lyrics delve into the complexities of the artist's life, revealing her insecurities, regrets, and the internal battles she faces. The opening line, 'When I die, I want my ash shut out of a confetti cannon,' sets a tone of irreverence and a desire to be remembered in a unique, celebratory manner, despite the messiness of her life.

The song's chorus highlights the duality of her existence: a 'wanna-be actress, insecure and jealous,' who struggles with self-worth and the pressure to meet others' expectations. Madon questions whether she will be remembered for her true self or the idealized version others wanted her to be. This theme is further emphasized in the lines, 'Let's say you're fake-crying at my wake / Would you make a stupid eulogy?' Here, she critiques the superficiality of societal norms and the often disingenuous nature of public mourning.

Madon also touches on the pervasive influence of social media, where 'Babies and success' dominate, making her question her own worth and achievements. The song's raw honesty is evident in her admission of self-medication and the struggle with mental health issues, encapsulated in the line, 'Demons that I face / I hate my skin, I hate the truth, I hate my waist.' Despite these struggles, she pleads to be remembered for her intentions and the love she had for those around her, rather than her failures. The song is a poignant reminder of the importance of authenticity and the human desire to be understood and forgiven.