Pretend You Love Me

“Pretend You Love Me” by Baby Bugs is a raw and poignant exploration of childhood trauma and the lasting scars it leaves. The song delves into the artist's early experiences, marked by premature exposure to the harsh realities of the world, facilitated by the internet. The lyrics reflect a deep sense of betrayal and hurt, as the artist grapples with the impact of these experiences on their sense of self-worth and relationships with their parents. The line, “I was just a kid but I learned much too fast,” encapsulates the premature loss of innocence and the enduring emotional wounds that follow.

The recurring theme of being labeled a “monster” and the need to feel pain to escape it highlights the internalized self-blame and the struggle for validation. The artist questions whether their pain and perceived unlovability contributed to their strained familial relationships. This self-reflection is tinged with a sense of resignation, as seen in the line, “If I went back in time to see six years old me, I'd say this shit does not get better this is who you're meant to be.” This suggests a deep-seated belief that their suffering is an inescapable part of their identity.

The chorus, with its plea to “keep pretending you love me,” underscores the desperate need for affection and acceptance, even if it is insincere. The artist's willingness to believe in a love that is never shown speaks to the profound loneliness and emotional neglect they have endured. The song's raw honesty and vulnerability make it a powerful commentary on the long-term effects of childhood trauma and the complex dynamics of familial relationships. Baby Bugs uses their music to give voice to these painful experiences, creating a space for empathy and understanding.