Ghost

Badflower's song 'Ghost' delves into the harrowing experience of someone grappling with suicidal thoughts and the overwhelming weight of their existence. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of the protagonist's repeated attempts to end their life, each time reflecting on their pain, regrets, and the feeling of being unnoticed and unloved. The opening lines reveal a sense of failure and frustration, as the protagonist feels that their efforts to escape their suffering have been in vain, and they are left yearning for even a small sign of care from others.

The chorus of the song is particularly poignant, as it captures the protagonist's fear and self-loathing. They describe themselves as a 'freak' and express a deep-seated fear that even death won't bring an end to their pain. Instead, they worry about the impact their death will have on those who cared for them, envisioning themselves as a 'white ghost' haunting the lives of their loved ones. This metaphor of the 'white ghost' symbolizes the unfulfilled potential and the person they could have been, had they not been consumed by their struggles.

As the song progresses, the protagonist's reflections become more intense and regretful. They think about their friends and family, particularly their mother, and the love they failed to express. The lyrics convey a sense of guilt and remorse, as the protagonist acknowledges their shortcomings and the overwhelming nature of their life. The repeated attempts to end their life highlight the cyclical nature of their despair, with each attempt bringing a deeper sense of regret and realization of the pain they are causing themselves and others. 'Ghost' is a raw and emotional exploration of mental health, self-identity, and the haunting effects of unaddressed pain and regret.