Doesn't Matter

BENEE's song 'Doesn't Matter' delves into the complexities of living with anxiety and the constant battle between rationality and irrational fears. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of the artist's internal struggle, where everyday tasks become monumental challenges due to the overwhelming presence of anxiety. The opening lines, 'What's it like / To not have to think about it? / It seems nice / Not a care, so quiet,' set the tone for the song, highlighting a longing for peace and a mind free from incessant worry.

The recurring theme of questioning whether medication would alleviate the pain ('If I medicate, would it help me? / 'Cause I'm hurting, I feel unwell') underscores the desperation and confusion often felt by those grappling with mental health issues. BENEE's candid admission of feeling unwell and the repetitive nature of her fears ('Check that / Have to check that the oven is off / This happens every night sometimes you tell me off') reflect the cyclical and exhausting nature of anxiety.

The chorus, 'I know it doesn't matter / None of this even matters,' serves as a poignant reminder of the irrationality of these fears, even as they continue to dominate the artist's thoughts. The song's bridge further explores the depth of this struggle, with lines like 'You're scared of almost everything / I know and it's really a drain,' capturing the draining effect of constant fear. BENEE's use of metaphors, such as 'Is my house filled with witches?' and 'Hide under a pillow,' adds a layer of surrealism to the narrative, emphasizing the often irrational and exaggerated nature of anxiety-induced thoughts.

'Doesn't Matter' is a raw and honest portrayal of the mental and emotional toll of anxiety, offering listeners a glimpse into the artist's mind and the daily battles faced by those with similar experiences. BENEE's ability to articulate these feelings through her music provides a sense of solidarity and understanding for anyone who has ever felt overwhelmed by their own thoughts.