​fuilu

In 'fuilu,' blackbear delves into the complex emotions that arise from a strained and distant relationship. The song's lyrics oscillate between feelings of love and resentment, capturing the turmoil of missing someone who was never truly present. The opening lines, 'I miss you, but I never really knew you at all,' set the tone for the entire song, highlighting the paradox of longing for someone who was emotionally unavailable. This duality is further emphasized in the chorus, where blackbear repeatedly sings, 'Fuck you, I love you at the same time,' encapsulating the conflicting emotions that define the relationship.

The song also touches on themes of abandonment and the impact of unfulfilled promises. Lines like 'Another fuckin' birthday, I ain't heard from you' and 'You promised me that you would come around' reveal the deep-seated disappointment and instability caused by the absence of the person he is addressing. The imagery of 'blank stares break chairs at every single table' and 'times we never shared that made me unstable' paints a vivid picture of the emotional wreckage left behind. These lines suggest that the relationship, or lack thereof, has had a profound and destabilizing effect on blackbear's mental state.

Towards the end of the song, blackbear reflects on the lasting impact of this relationship and his determination to rise above it. The lines 'Erase the parts of me I wish would die' and 'Now the only thing that really gets me through is knowin' that I'll be a better man than you' indicate a desire for self-improvement and a resolve to break free from the negative influence of the past. This resolution adds a layer of hope and resilience to the otherwise melancholic tone of the song, suggesting that while the pain of the past lingers, it also serves as a catalyst for personal growth.