Monster

Boondox

Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window

I'm not afraid of the dark
But I'm afraid of my heart
And I'm afraid that everything is gonna fall apart

Always afraid that things will never get better
I went from writing down rhymes
To typin' suicide letters

Diagnosed with paranoia
You can check my prescription
I'm a manic depressive
One of my many conditions

I'm not a prophet though I say it
But I'm seein' a vision
My life, it was beyond it one a one-way collision

If ignorance is bliss
Then I'm devoid of any sorrows
'Cause I don't wanna know the outcome
Of today or tomorrow

I just wanna hide inside my own private Hell
How can I ever get to Heaven
When so many angels fell?

I'm just a human being
I'm just only being human
With eternity and judgement
From another always loomin'

It's a wonder that I made it
With these voices in my head
With all these monsters at my window
Starin' at me in my bed

Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window

If you're a friend to me or kin to me
An enemy or into me
I'm begging on a bended knee
Come and put an end to me

Put me out my misery
Permanently, no injury
I'm tired of fighting entities
I'm running out of energy

Feel like a lost boy
Searchin' for the answers
Just waitin' on tragedy
A heart attack or even cancer

So many monsters hidin'
Waitin' 'round the corner for us
If life is like a song
I'm at the verse and searchin' for the chorus

Maybe I should stop and take a moment
Put it in perspective
Maybe I should take a knife
And take a life and get injected

I just wanna go out
On my own fuckin' terms
Knowing it was me that put me
In the dirt and with the worms

I think I'll pop another pill
Try to heal the ill
Wash it down with gasoline
Light a match and that's for real

But I'll just probably go to sleep
And try to clear my head
Hiding from these monsters
At my window, underneath my bed

[Muffled Singing]

Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the window