i don't know what to say

Bring Me The Horizon's song 'i don't know what to say' delves into the complex emotions surrounding loss, grief, and the struggle to find words in the face of such profound experiences. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person grappling with the death of a loved one, symbolized by the imagery of meeting at the gates and jumping the wall. This metaphorical language suggests a desire to reconnect with the departed, even if it means defying the boundaries between life and death. The line 'Kill the angels if they're keeping guard' further emphasizes the lengths one might go to in order to reunite with someone they have lost.

The song also touches on the theme of resilience and the strength to move forward despite the pain. The lyrics 'You said the world's already full enough of defeated people, and you would not be one' reflect a message of perseverance and the importance of finding a way to continue living, even when faced with overwhelming sorrow. This sentiment is echoed in the lines 'How a flower in the rain only grows more when it's grey,' which suggest that adversity can lead to growth and transformation.

Throughout the song, there is a sense of regret and longing, as the narrator wishes they had expressed their feelings before it was too late. The mention of a 'doppelgänger with a telling scar' and seeing the 'Universe hidden in your heart' indicates a deep connection and understanding of the person who has passed. The song concludes with a powerful statement of defiance and resilience: 'I can die, but I can't break, you said. You can rule, I won't obey. As long as I'm still smiling, well, I don't know what to say.' This final declaration encapsulates the enduring spirit of the loved one and the narrator's struggle to articulate their emotions in the wake of loss.