I'm My Own Problem (feat. Ashe)

Caleb Hyles' song "I'm My Own Problem (feat. Ashe)" delves into the complexities of self-identity and interpersonal relationships. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of an internal struggle, where the protagonist grapples with feelings of guilt, self-worth, and the burden of others' expectations. The opening lines, "I'm like a thousand years old," set a tone of weariness and timelessness, suggesting that the issues at hand are deeply ingrained and long-standing.

The song's narrative unfolds through a dialogue between two voices, reflecting an internal conflict. One voice expresses frustration and a desire to break free from the expectations and judgments of others, as seen in lines like "Sorry, I don't treat you like your perfect / Like all your little loyal subjects do." This voice is tired of being seen as a problem and is struggling to assert its own identity. The other voice, however, acknowledges the pain and loneliness of the other person but also recognizes that it cannot shoulder their burdens, encapsulated in the line, "I know that it hurts when you’re lonely / But I can't take that burden from you."

The recurring theme of wanting to "bury" the other person, both literally and metaphorically, signifies a desire to escape the toxic dynamics of the relationship. Yet, there is an underlying sense of care and unresolved attachment, as the protagonist admits, "Why do I want to? (Yes, I still want to)." This duality highlights the complexity of human emotions, where love and frustration coexist. The song ultimately suggests that while we may struggle with our own problems and those of others, the journey of self-realization and acceptance is ongoing and fraught with challenges.