Cursed Night

Calliope Mori's 'Cursed Night' delves into the intricate and often dark landscape of mental health, self-perception, and existential musings. The song opens with a vivid portrayal of days blending together, symbolizing a state of mental fog and disorientation. This imagery sets the stage for a deeper exploration of the artist's internal struggles, where the weight of her words and the ebb-and-flow of life create a sense of unpreparedness and unease. The lyrics reflect a battle with mental exhaustion, yet there's a hint of resilience as she acknowledges the fun and adventure in her journey, despite not feeling well.

The chorus introduces a poignant reflection on loneliness and the borrowed nature of sanity. Calliope Mori romanticizes concern and fantasizes about a connection that never says 'Goodbye,' highlighting a desire for stability amidst chaos. The phrase 'cursed night' encapsulates the recurring theme of running through darkness, both literally and metaphorically. The complexity of her emotions is further emphasized by the repeated plea to not look inside, suggesting a fear of vulnerability and being truly seen. The use of Japanese phrases like 'Jibun no me de mietai no?' (Do you want to see with your own eyes?) adds a layer of cultural depth, inviting listeners to witness the beauty in despair.

As the song progresses, Calliope Mori reflects on her past and the self-deception that others would flee from her true self. The revelation of her identity as 'Death' introduces a unique twist, blending her persona as a virtual artist with the existential themes of the song. The lyrics convey a sense of awkwardness and constant mental turmoil, where kindness from others paradoxically tightens her chest. The mention of 'sunk cost fallacy' and the rapid passage of time underscore the futility and frustration in her quest for meaning. Ultimately, the song concludes with a resigned acceptance of her solitary path, where her 'childish eyes' only see what she wants to see, encapsulating the ongoing struggle between self-awareness and denial.