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Car Seat Headrest's song 'Fill In The Blank' delves deep into the complexities of self-identity and the pervasive struggle with depression. The lyrics are a raw and candid exploration of the internal battles faced by the protagonist, who feels overwhelmed by societal expectations and personal dissatisfaction. The opening lines, 'I'm so sick of, fill in the blank / Accomplish more, accomplish nothing,' set the tone for the song, highlighting the frustration of feeling stuck in a cycle of unfulfilled ambitions and self-criticism.

The recurring refrain, 'You have no right to be depressed / You haven't tried hard enough to like it,' reflects the external pressures and invalidation often experienced by those struggling with mental health issues. This sentiment is further emphasized by the lines, 'Well stop your whining, try again / No one wants to cause you pain / They're just trying to let some air in / But you hold your breath,' which suggest a lack of understanding and empathy from others. The protagonist's response, 'Hold my breath, I hold my breath, I hold it,' symbolizes the suffocating effect of these pressures and the internalization of pain.

The song also touches on the existential crisis of not knowing what one wants from life, as expressed in the lines, 'I've known for a long time / I'm not getting what I want out of people / It took me a long time / To figure out I don't know what I want.' This sense of confusion and aimlessness is a common theme in the journey of self-discovery. The repeated references to receiving signs from various sources, including the cops, the audience, and even God, all telling the protagonist to 'stay the fuck down,' underscore the feeling of being constantly beaten down by external forces.

In the final verse, the protagonist asserts their right to feel depressed, having 'given every inch' to fight it and having 'seen too much of this world.' This declaration is a powerful statement of self-acceptance and acknowledgment of their struggles. The song concludes with the haunting repetition of 'I hold my breath,' a poignant reminder of the ongoing battle with depression and the difficulty of finding relief.