I Want You To Know That I'm Awake / I Hope That You're Asleep

Bullshit, love
Bullshit
Love, it's bullshit

I am not allowed to have feelings
Feelings would complicate this
I'm a stupid, ugly, stuttering asshole
And there is no dignity in my anger
Mind if I cough in your ear all night?
Mind if I resent you for a year tonight?
I am not the type of man who can fall asleep in someone else's arms

(Didn't mean to lie 'bout it all) I love you, sometimes I love you
But it's hard to say, there are times when I don't love
I can't love anything in this world
I want you to know
I want you to know
I want you to know that I'm
But I hope that you're
I hope that you're

It doesn't matter what I say
If you don't say anything in response
The final phrase of my last sentence
Hangs in the air, sounding stupider and stupider
Why can't you at least laugh?
I tried so hard to find the right words
But it's a matter of timing, you only have so long
To capture the feeling before it's gone

Here is a demo of my latest sentence
I'll fill in the good parts later
I'll make it fit together real nice
And cut out all the likes

Two days ago it was really bad
I couldn't get my head straight all day
And everything you said seemed to have an edge
You were disappointed and I didn't know why
Eventually, it came to a head
Over something as stupid as making coffee
You said it was a mistake to ever try and help me
Then you went in the kitchen

I drove off to go buy some stuff
Which was a mistake, because
I didn't want to come back
I just sat in the parking lot
And dabbed at my thumb, which was bleeding for some reason
Leaving a trail of red blossoms on the napkin
I felt sick and I didn't know what to do
How long would it be before I could face you?

Flashback to the first angry song I had to hide from you
It goes like this: I am hiding from you at the QFC, QFC, QFC

Michael and Bryan broke up today
But we're not like them
No, we're nothing like them
Frankie and Ava broke up today
But we're not like them
No, we're nothing like them

Felice and Lanky broke up today
But we're not like them
No, nothing like them
John and Yoko separated for a year
But we're not like them
No, nothing like them

The Beatles broke up today
But we're not like them
No, nothing like them
Paul said: I just started doubting everything I did
But you're not like him
No, you're nothing like him

Your parents and my parents
Well, let's not get into that
'Cause we're not like them
We are nothing like them
Degnan and Skippy haven't spoken for a while
But we're not like them
No, we're nothing like them, no

(I hope that you're still asleep)