When I Close My Eyes

Chelsea Cutler's song 'When I Close My Eyes' delves into the complex emotions surrounding the pursuit of satisfaction and the fear of never truly finding it. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who is constantly striving for more, yet finds themselves perpetually unfulfilled. The opening lines, 'I'm falling, I'm counting my steps from the top to the bottom,' suggest a sense of descent and disorientation, as if the narrator is losing their way despite their efforts to climb higher in life.

The recurring plea to a higher power, 'God give me the things I need to open up my heart and let you in,' underscores a deep yearning for spiritual or emotional fulfillment. This line indicates that the narrator is seeking something beyond material or superficial gains, hoping to find a sense of completeness and peace. The repetition of 'And know it's all enough, tell me it's all enough' highlights the internal struggle to accept that what they have might already be sufficient, even if it doesn't feel that way.

The song also touches on the theme of lost dreams and the passage of time, as seen in the lines 'Wanted magic, but how many dreams have we left in the attic, collecting dust with my youth.' This metaphor of dreams gathering dust suggests that the narrator has abandoned many aspirations along the way, perhaps in the relentless chase for something more. The fear of 'gonna die still living like this' encapsulates the existential dread of living a life that feels incomplete or unfulfilled. Ultimately, 'When I Close My Eyes' is a poignant exploration of the human condition, grappling with the elusive nature of satisfaction and the hope that being present with a loved one might be enough.