Can't Even Hate You
Cian Ducrot
Sometimes I really try, oh, I try to hate you
But what if it's last thing I should do?
'Cause hating only hurts those who feel it
And I'll be damned if that's on you
But I know there's a part of me that needs to
To still feel anything at all from you
But why am I avoiding the truth?
'Cause what would that do?
What would that do?
Oh-oh
But you'll never love me back
You know how I know that I loved you too hard?
'Cause I can't even hate you for breaking my heart
You know how I know that I loved you too much?
'Cause I can't even hate you for tearing us up
You know how I know that I gave you my all?
'Cause, when you walked out the door, I had nothing at all
And you know how I know that I loved you too deep?
'Cause I can't even hate you for breaking me
Guess that, on the surface, I never cry
But they just don't see what's behind my eyes
It eats you up from the inside
And the cold, hard truth is we all die
And I don't wanna be twenty-six years old
Carrying some pain that I never told
Since I turned eighteen, I've been stone-cold
But what would that do?
What would that do?
Oh-oh
Why can't you love me back?
You know how I know that I loved you too hard?
'Cause I can't even hate you for breaking my heart
You know how I know that I loved you too much?
'Cause I can't even hate you for tearing us up
You know how I know that I gave you my all?
'Cause, when you walked out the door, I had nothing at all
And you know how I know that I loved you too deep?
'Cause I can't even hate you for breaking me
For breaking me
Why does no one tell you it's not how bad they hurt you
It's how bad you can take it (Take) and still hold back and fake it?
Oh, why does no one tell you it's not how bad they break you
Oh, I wish I could hate you, I wish I could hate you (Oh-oh)
But what would that do?
What would that do?
Oh-oh
You know how I know that I loved you too hard?
'Cause I can't even hate you