life waster

In 'life waster,' Corpse delves into the depths of emotional and psychological turmoil, painting a vivid picture of a life marked by substance abuse, mental health struggles, and the haunting presence of death. The song opens with a stark contrast between the paths taken by the narrator and a significant other—one choosing substances, the other college. This divergence sets the stage for a reflection on missed opportunities and unresolved issues, underscored by the narrator's lingering love and the harsh reality that 'tomorrow's not promised.' The disdain for fame and the chronic nature of illness further highlight the narrator's internal conflict and the impact of external pressures on their mental state.

The chorus introduces a sense of danger and recklessness, with references to being a 'reprobate' and a 'life waster.' The imagery of stars and the moon suggests fleeting moments of beauty and connection amidst the chaos. The mention of 'damage in my C6' and the understanding of 'where my blade at' alludes to physical and emotional scars, hinting at self-harm or violence as coping mechanisms. The relationship depicted is intense and tumultuous, with shared tears and a sense of being 'haunted' by past traumas and current struggles.

As the song progresses, the lyrics become more confrontational and nihilistic. The narrator's feelings of betrayal and disillusionment are palpable, with lines like 'Pull me back in with your fucking lies' and 'Kill me slowly, baby, you know I don't fuckin' mind.' The references to anime characters Kira and Misa from 'Death Note' add a layer of cultural context, emphasizing themes of identity, vengeance, and existential dread. The closing lines, 'I want blood, I don't get even,' encapsulate the narrator's descent into darkness, driven by a desire for retribution and a sense of hopelessness. 'life waster' is a raw and unflinching exploration of the complexities of mental health, relationships, and the search for meaning in a seemingly indifferent world.