So Big / So Small

In 'So Big / So Small' from the musical 'Dear Evan Hansen,' Heidi, the protagonist's mother, reflects on a poignant moment in their lives. The song captures the day her husband left, a day that marked a significant change for both her and her son. The imagery of the U-Haul truck in the driveway symbolizes the finality of the father's departure, making the situation 'suddenly real.' Heidi's attempt to shield her son from the painful reality is evident when she tells him not to come outside, but his innocent excitement over the truck contrasts sharply with the gravity of the situation.

The chorus, 'And the house felt so big, and I felt so small,' encapsulates Heidi's overwhelming sense of responsibility and the daunting task of raising her son alone. This line poignantly conveys the emotional weight she feels, as the physical space of the house mirrors the emotional void left by her husband's departure. The repetition of this line throughout the song emphasizes the enduring nature of these feelings.

Heidi's conversation with her son that night, where he asks if another truck will come to take her away, highlights the child's fear of abandonment. Her reassurances, 'Your mom isn't going anywhere,' serve as a powerful declaration of her commitment and love. The song beautifully portrays the complexities of single parenthood, the insecurities, and the unwavering dedication to her child. The final lines, 'When it all feels so big, 'til it all feels so small,' suggest that despite the challenges, their bond and love will make the overwhelming moments manageable, shrinking them down to a size they can handle together.