Fist (Hidden Track)

Deftones' 'Fist (Hidden Track)' is a haunting and introspective piece that delves into themes of possession, longing, and existential fatigue. The song opens with a possessive declaration, 'Hello, you are mine,' setting a tone of intense personal connection and control. This line suggests a deep, almost obsessive need for the other person, which is further emphasized by the repetition of 'I need you.' The lyrics convey a sense of desperation and dependency, hinting at a relationship that is both consuming and essential to the narrator's existence.

As the song progresses, the narrator expresses a future hope of being with 'her' and 'you,' indicating a complex emotional landscape where multiple relationships or facets of a single relationship are at play. The line 'I'll be with you, I will' underscores a determined, almost fated connection, suggesting that the narrator's sense of self is intertwined with this other person. This intertwining is further complicated by the admission of feeling 'so dead,' which could symbolize emotional numbness or a profound sense of loss and disconnection from life.

The imagery of the 'first star' and 'the one who sees it all' introduces a celestial, almost mystical element to the song. This person is not just a significant other but a guiding light and an all-seeing presence in the narrator's life. The closing lines, 'I'm so tired and sick,' encapsulate a deep weariness and existential fatigue, painting a picture of someone who is emotionally and physically drained. This weariness could be a result of the intense emotional experiences described throughout the song, making 'Fist (Hidden Track)' a poignant exploration of the darker aspects of love and dependency.