What Have I Done
Dermot Kennedy
The Awakening of Love and Vulnerability
Dermot Kennedy's song "What Have I Done" delves into the profound emotional journey of falling in love and the vulnerability that accompanies it. The lyrics open with a moment of realization, as the protagonist wakes up to the light pouring in, symbolizing a new beginning or an awakening. This newfound love has torn and reborn his soul, indicating a transformative experience that has breathed new life into him. The repeated question, "What have I done?" reflects a mix of awe, confusion, and perhaps a bit of fear about the changes love has brought into his life.
The song continues to explore the theme of unexpected salvation through love. The protagonist admits that he never thought he needed saving and believed he was content on his own. However, the arrival of this significant other has shifted his perspective, making him realize that he needs this person despite the inherent risks. The line "Good God, I know it's dangerous, but it's you that I need" encapsulates the tension between the safety of solitude and the perilous beauty of love. This internal conflict is a central theme, highlighting the courage it takes to embrace love fully.
As the song progresses, the protagonist's resolve strengthens. He urges his partner not to fall back asleep, emphasizing the importance of seizing the moment and getting it right this time. The imagery of being "knocked out and beat" but still feeling fleeting joy suggests past struggles and the transient nature of happiness. Yet, the protagonist remains hopeful, captivated by the golden smile of his beloved and the desire to be a part of their life. The song closes with a plea for bravery, underscoring the mutual courage required to sustain love. Dermot Kennedy's emotive delivery and poignant lyrics make "What Have I Done" a powerful exploration of love's transformative and sometimes daunting nature.