Only I Exist

Djerv's song 'Only I Exist' delves into themes of isolation, emotional turmoil, and the search for identity within complex relationships. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a tumultuous relationship where the protagonist feels both connected and disconnected from their partner. The opening lines, 'In bed, you love me, I'm old with you,' suggest a deep, perhaps long-standing connection, yet the subsequent lines reveal a sense of abandonment and emotional conflict. The mention of 'fluid flow' and 'aim for this' could symbolize the ebb and flow of emotions and the struggle to maintain a sense of self within the relationship.

The recurring line, 'Given a scene from the state you're in, I'd like you to pose right now,' implies a moment of reflection or confrontation. It suggests that the protagonist is asking their partner to confront their current emotional state, perhaps to understand the gravity of their situation. The imagery of 'heavy crosses flying' and 'the cross is miles away' evokes a sense of burden and distance, indicating that the protagonist feels weighed down by the relationship and is seeking an escape.

The chorus, 'Morphine, into this, the shit you want me in, Do only I exist here? Were you with me?' highlights the protagonist's feelings of isolation and questioning of their partner's presence and support. The use of 'morphine' suggests a numbing of pain, both physical and emotional, and the repeated questioning of existence underscores a deep sense of loneliness. The song concludes with the protagonist leaving their partner 'lying there on the floor,' symbolizing a final act of separation and the need to move on from a relationship that has become a source of pain and confusion.