mad

eaJ's song 'mad' delves into the raw and lingering emotions of betrayal and the struggle to move past it. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone grappling with the aftermath of a deep personal betrayal by a trusted friend. The repeated refrain, 'I'm still mad,' underscores the persistent nature of the hurt and anger that the protagonist feels, despite their efforts to rise above it.

The song's narrative reveals a journey of emotional turmoil, where the protagonist reflects on the trust they placed in someone who ultimately let them down. Lines like 'You took an arm and a leg / And broke my heart when I heard 'em' and 'I thought of you as a friend' highlight the depth of the betrayal and the pain of realizing that someone they considered a friend saw them as a burden. This betrayal is not just a momentary lapse but a calculated series of actions that left the protagonist feeling used and discarded.

Throughout the song, there's a recurring theme of trying to be the 'bigger person' and the internal conflict that comes with it. The protagonist's struggle is evident in lines like 'I'm trying to be the bigger person / Every time you put me down / But I'm uncertain it was working.' This internal battle between wanting to forgive and the persistent anger is a central theme, making the song relatable to anyone who has experienced a similar betrayal. The song's emotional depth is further amplified by eaJ's poignant delivery, making 'mad' a powerful anthem for those grappling with unresolved anger and the complexities of forgiveness.