Fan

Emmanuel Horvilleur's song "Fan" delves into the complex emotions of admiration and disillusionment. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who is deeply infatuated with another person, to the point of being a 'fan' of everything that has transpired between them. The repeated use of the word 'fan' underscores the intensity of this admiration, almost elevating it to a form of worship. The initial encounter is described as mesmerizing, even though the other person exudes a 'mala onda' or bad vibe, suggesting a fascination with the enigmatic and perhaps the unattainable.

As the song progresses, the narrator reflects on the cost of this infatuation, both emotionally and financially. The line "Cuanta plata en ti he perdido yo" (How much money have I lost on you) highlights the tangible sacrifices made in the name of this one-sided devotion. Despite these losses, the narrator remains a fan, willing to follow and support the object of their affection as long as they are allowed to do so without objection. This reveals a deep-seated need for validation and connection, even at a personal cost.

However, there is a turning point where the narrator contemplates ending this fan-like devotion. The condition for this change is self-awareness and mutual recognition, as indicated by the lines "en tanto sepas quién soy yo, cuando ya no me cuestes nada" (as long as you know who I am, when you no longer cost me anything). This suggests a desire for a more balanced and reciprocal relationship, where admiration is not one-sided and costly. The song captures the bittersweet nature of unrequited love and the internal struggle between devotion and self-preservation.