I Would Never

Estherlivia's song 'I Would Never' delves into the complexities of emotional dependence and the struggle for personal autonomy. The lyrics paint a picture of a relationship where one partner feels stifled and unable to take control of their own life. The opening lines, 'When you follow I'll be gone / Big dreams, you make me feel stone cold,' suggest a sense of suffocation and a desire to break free from the constraints imposed by the other person. The imagery of 'full of gold' juxtaposed with feeling 'stone cold' highlights the internal conflict between the allure of dreams and the harsh reality of emotional detachment.

The recurring lines 'When I said I wanted you / I would never' and 'Come on take my problems too / You would never' emphasize the disillusionment and unmet expectations in the relationship. The protagonist seems to be grappling with the realization that their partner is not willing or able to share the emotional burden, leading to a sense of isolation and frustration. The repetition of 'You would never' underscores the certainty of this emotional neglect, making it a poignant refrain throughout the song.

The verse '200 beats I will soon fall / Can't seem to find the one to call' further illustrates the protagonist's sense of urgency and desperation. The metaphor of '200 beats' could symbolize a racing heart or a countdown to an emotional breaking point. The inability to 'find the one to call' signifies a lack of support and connection, leaving the protagonist feeling abandoned. The plea 'Will you come or let me sink' encapsulates the central theme of the song: the struggle between seeking help and the fear of being let down. Estherlivia's evocative lyrics and haunting melody create a powerful narrative about the challenges of emotional independence and the pain of unfulfilled expectations.