home with you

FKA twigs' song 'home with you' delves into the complexities of human connection, loneliness, and the struggle for self-identity. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of emotional turmoil and the desire to be understood and loved. The opening lines, 'I'm so wired, fought it, seen it, tried it / I die for you on my terms,' suggest a battle with inner demons and a willingness to sacrifice for love, but only on her own terms. The recurring mention of 'pain' and 'novocaine' highlights the struggle to maintain grace amidst suffering, a theme that resonates throughout the song.

The chorus, 'I, didn't know that you were lonely / If you'd have just told me I'd be home with you,' reveals a poignant realization of missed communication and the deep yearning to be there for a loved one. This sentiment is further emphasized by the repeated imagery of 'running down the hills' to be with the person, symbolizing a desperate and urgent need to bridge the emotional distance. The song also touches on the societal pressures and expectations placed on individuals, as seen in the lines, 'How come the more you have, the more that people want from you?' This reflects the artist's struggle with fame and the constant demands it brings.

FKA twigs also explores themes of self-worth and the search for a hero within oneself. The lines, 'I've never seen a hero like me in a sci-fi / So I wonder if your needs are even meant for me,' suggest a feeling of inadequacy and the quest for validation. The reference to Mary Magdalene, a figure often associated with redemption and unwavering support, underscores the artist's desire to be a source of strength and love for others. Ultimately, 'home with you' is a hauntingly beautiful exploration of the human condition, marked by a deep longing for connection and understanding.