Destruction of Myself

From Ashes To New

I close my eyes and make believe I'm anywhere but here
It grows inside and makes me see I'm nowhere even near
Although I've tried there's no rewind I cannot disappear
I think it's time that I realize it's me inside that mirror
Cuz everything I do reflects on me
And every path I choose effects me deep
These scars are from the wounds I've left on me
Only I fit the shoes that get the best of me
Nothings ever new made a mess of me
It's all I ever do it's oppressing me
I'm hiding from the truth to the best degree
But it's never out of view it's my destiny

Brought down and beat down
Destruction of dealing with myself
Nothing and no one now it's done
And I'm the one who fell
Who fell

It's my own hand that made me fall there's no one else to blame
I try to stand outside these walls and wish I felt the pain
I try to cry but can't because I've dealt with this for days
I'll die the man I am after all I'm selfish in my ways
There's nothing you can do to save me now
It's something that I choose and it weighs me down
It's coming and ensues to play me now
Can't run from what I grew it's made me how
I look to all of you afraid, beat down, tattered, and abused, it remains renowned
It's nothing, no new news how it's made me drown
There's nothing left to lose, no escaping now

Brought down and beat down
Destruction of dealing with myself
Nothing and no one now it's done
And I'm the one who fell
And I'm still
Brought down and beat down
Destruction of dealing with myself
Destruction of myself because I'm living in hell
Nothing and no one now it's done
And I'm the one who fell
Who fell

The destruction of myself stems from no one's actions but my own
Everything I do, with every breath I breathe, it's a mistake
Every time I try, every time I try to overcome, I fail

Failure to the fullest
Everything I do is foolish
Careless and clueless
I try to stop but still I do this
Reckless I choose this
These self inflicted scars and bruises
Helpless and ruined, left for dead and rendered useless