ilusm

In 'ilusm,' gnash delves into the complexities of love, vulnerability, and the fear of loneliness. The song opens with a contrast between optimism and pessimism, highlighting the differing perspectives in a relationship. While one person sees the light before the dark, the other sees the end before the start. This sets the stage for a narrative that explores the struggles of maintaining a relationship amidst personal challenges and emotional turmoil.

The lyrics reveal a sense of frustration and helplessness as gnash grapples with the reality that things don't always go as planned. The lines 'I've been trying and finding that things going right aren't as simple as everyone told me they would be' reflect a universal truth about the unpredictability of life and relationships. The song captures the tension between wanting to be there for a partner and the demands of personal responsibilities, as seen in 'I know that you miss me, I'm sorry I'm busy, and don't make the time for the things you ask from me.'

A recurring theme in the song is the need for emotional validation and connection. gnash expresses a deep yearning to feel special and loved, especially when life feels numbing. The chorus, 'Just make me feel special and make me feel loved, make me feel something, lately life's made me numb,' underscores this desire. The fear of being alone and the comfort found in a partner's presence are poignantly captured in lines like 'I stay cause I'm scared to leave, I'm not prepared to be lonely without you see.' The song concludes with a plea for reassurance and a fear of abandonment, encapsulating the fragile balance of love and loneliness.