Coward

Gothurted's song 'Coward' delves deep into the emotional turmoil and loneliness experienced by the narrator. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a person grappling with intense feelings of isolation and despair. The opening lines, 'World is a beautiful place when I'm not sober,' suggest that the narrator finds solace in substances, which temporarily mask the pain of their reality. However, this escape is fleeting, and they are left feeling like a 'loner' once the effects wear off. The repeated admission of being a 'coward' highlights a profound sense of self-loathing and helplessness, as the narrator feels unable to take drastic actions, even as they contemplate them.

The song also touches on the theme of lost love and its devastating impact. The lines 'I was happy, got distracted and u got far / Found the love then / I lost it at the same time' reflect a poignant moment of regret and sorrow. The narrator's happiness was short-lived, and the loss of love has left them feeling empty and without purpose. This loss is compounded by the absence of support, as they lament having to 'deal with the sadness without even a friend.' The imagery of 'crying into the backyard' evokes a sense of being trapped in one's own sorrow, with no one to turn to for comfort.

The recurring motif of having 'a thousand reasons to die' but being unable to act on them underscores the depth of the narrator's despair. Despite the overwhelming pain, there is a glimmer of hope in the line 'My heart tells me I should looking forward,' suggesting an internal struggle between giving up and finding a reason to keep going. 'Coward' is a raw and honest portrayal of the complexities of mental health, loneliness, and the search for meaning in the face of overwhelming adversity.