I've Been Thinkin'

Handsome Boy Modeling School's song 'I've Been Thinkin'' features the ethereal vocals of Chan Marshall, also known as Cat Power. The song delves into the complexities of a romantic relationship, exploring themes of love, control, and independence. The repetitive plea of 'Be my boy' sets the tone for a longing and desire for connection, yet the lyrics reveal a deeper struggle for autonomy and self-respect.

The verses reflect on past interactions and emotions, with lines like 'I've been thinking about those things you said' and 'I've been thinking about those things you made me do too.' These reflections suggest a relationship marked by both fond memories and moments of manipulation or coercion. The metaphor of being 'hypnotized by your fairy eyes' and the imagery of a 'tiger in the dark' convey a sense of enchantment and danger, highlighting the dual nature of the relationship.

The chorus, with its mention of 'Diamonds, candy pills, one million dollar bills,' critiques materialism and the idea that love or loyalty can be bought. The repeated assertion 'You can try, but you can't buy me' emphasizes the singer's determination to maintain her independence and self-worth. The lines 'I'll never be on my knees' further reinforce this stance, rejecting submission and asserting personal strength.

The song also touches on the confusion and emotional turmoil that comes with questioning one's feelings and the dynamics of the relationship. The repeated questioning of 'Am I losin' control, am I losin' my soul, just tell me am I losin' you' captures the internal conflict and fear of losing oneself in the process of loving someone else. Ultimately, 'I've Been Thinkin'' is a powerful exploration of the balance between love and self-respect, and the importance of maintaining one's identity within a relationship.