Lydia

Highly Suspect's song 'Lydia' delves deep into the tumultuous emotions of love, loss, and regret. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a relationship that was once filled with pure, unrehearsed love but has since been marred by pain and sorrow. The recurring imagery of a 'black ocean cold and dark' and the protagonist as a 'hungry shark' suggests a sense of danger and inevitability, highlighting the destructive nature of the relationship. The girl, who could communicate with the protagonist, tragically 'couldn't swim,' symbolizing her inability to survive in the harsh emotional environment created by the protagonist.

The song's narrative is filled with haunting memories and echoes of the past, as the protagonist grapples with the ghost of a love that still lingers. The lines 'You were the one that I used to love / And I'm still in love / But I never loved you the most' reveal a complex mix of emotions, where love and regret coexist. The protagonist acknowledges the girl's unwavering love and support, even at her worst, while admitting his own shortcomings and the curse of being 'the worst' at his best.

The lyrics also touch on themes of self-destruction and escapism, with references to substance abuse and the numbing effects of 'coke' and 'ice.' The protagonist's struggle with accepting the truth and the overwhelming sense of guilt is palpable, as he ties the girl to the tracks and hears the sound of her demise. The repeated refrain of 'I can't breathe much less believe the truth' underscores the suffocating weight of his actions and the irreversible damage done. The song culminates in a desperate act of aiming for the sun and shooting, symbolizing a futile attempt to escape the darkness that engulfs him.