Serotonia

Highly Suspect's song 'Serotonia' delves into themes of existential angst, self-reflection, and the allure of escapism. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of the protagonist's desire to escape the burdens of social obligations and the pressures of modern life. The opening lines, 'I wish that everyone I knew was dead / So that I'd never have to pick up the phone,' starkly express a longing for isolation and freedom from societal expectations. This raw honesty sets the tone for the rest of the song, where the protagonist grapples with their sense of self-worth and the search for meaning.

The recurring motif of 'California dreamin'' serves as a metaphor for the idealized escape to a place where the protagonist believes they can find solace and a renewed sense of purpose. References to Hollywood icons like Lana Del Rey, Elizabeth Taylor, and Cary Grant evoke a sense of nostalgia and glamour, contrasting with the protagonist's self-admitted flaws. The lines 'I'm not that good of a person / But I might be enough for you' reveal a deep-seated insecurity and a yearning for acceptance despite perceived shortcomings.

The song also touches on the theme of self-medication and the pursuit of temporary highs as a means of coping with inner turmoil. The mention of getting 'stoned all night' and the desire to 'melt into the sand' suggest a longing to numb the pain and escape reality. However, the repeated refrain 'I think I wanna be alive' indicates an underlying desire for genuine connection and a meaningful existence. 'Serotonia' ultimately captures the complex interplay between self-doubt, the search for identity, and the hope for redemption through love and acceptance.