Autophagy (feat. vflower)

Hiiragi Kirai's song 'Autophagy (feat. vflower)' delves into the complex and often painful process of self-destruction and the internal battles that accompany it. The term 'autophagy' itself refers to the body's way of cleaning out damaged cells, which can be seen as a metaphor for the mental and emotional cleansing the protagonist is attempting to undergo. The lyrics are filled with a sense of frustration and helplessness, as the protagonist grapples with feelings of worthlessness and the desire to push away those who might cause further harm.

The repeated use of 'Hello' throughout the song serves as a haunting refrain, almost mocking the protagonist's attempts to find peace and clarity. The '脳内案内人' (brain guide) mentioned in the lyrics suggests an internal dialogue or a voice within the protagonist's mind that guides them through their thoughts, often leading to more confusion and pain. This internal guide is described as a '変わった人' (strange person), indicating the protagonist's struggle to understand their own mind and emotions.

The imagery of '虫喰いの時' (worm-eaten time) and '海鳴り 光' (sea roar, light) evokes a sense of decay and fleeting moments of clarity amidst the chaos. The protagonist's plea to '忘れさせて' (let me forget) highlights their desire to escape from the torment of their thoughts and memories. The song's conclusion, with the line '今に弾ける悪の目よ' (the eye of evil will burst soon), suggests a breaking point where the protagonist hopes to finally rid themselves of their inner demons. 'Autophagy' is a poignant exploration of the struggle for self-acceptance and the painful journey of confronting one's inner darkness.