Kutsujoku no Hiai Uta

Inugami circus-dan's song 'Kutsujoku no Hiai Uta' is a haunting exploration of deep emotional pain and societal rejection. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of isolation and despair, beginning with the stark admission that the protagonist has no friends or lovers. This loneliness is compounded by a sense of betrayal and resentment, as indicated by the recurring imagery of deep, aching wounds on the wrist. The repetition of 'fukai kizu ga uzuku' (deep wounds ache) underscores the persistent and unrelenting nature of this emotional and physical pain.

The song delves further into the protagonist's suffering by highlighting the cruelty of others. The lyrics describe a continuous denial of the protagonist's worth and humanity, with 'zankoku na kotoba ni chi wo haita' (cruel words spit blood) illustrating the visceral impact of harsh words. The repeated questioning of 'Watashi wa inu chikushou na no ka?' (Am I a dog, a beast?) reflects a profound internal struggle with self-worth and identity, exacerbated by the mocking and scorn of society.

In the final verses, the song shifts to a more defiant tone. The protagonist speaks of an 'elegy of shame' and a life offered up to the gods, suggesting a sacrificial or redemptive act. The declaration 'Ware koso wa erabareshi yogensha' (I am the chosen prophet) introduces a sense of purpose and destiny, as the protagonist envisions building an ideal world with their own hands. This transformation from despair to a vision of an ideal future provides a powerful contrast and a glimmer of hope amidst the darkness, emphasizing resilience and the potential for self-reinvention.