Dou Kangaete Mo Watashi Wa Warukunai

The song 'Dou Kangaete Mo Watashi Wa Warukunai' by Izumi Kitta is a candid exploration of self-reflection and the internal battle with self-acceptance. The lyrics convey a sense of frustration and confusion about why interactions with others don't go as planned, with the protagonist labeling themselves as foolish for not being able to maintain a conversation. The repetition of questioning why conversations don't continue suggests a deep-seated insecurity and a desire to understand what is going wrong.

As the song progresses, the lyrics delve into the theme of isolation and the struggle to connect with others. The protagonist seems to spend a lot of time alone, indicated by references to talking to oneself and playing alone. Despite this, there's a defiant tone where the protagonist insists that they are not at fault for their loneliness, hinting at a coping mechanism to avoid self-blame. The mention of the internet as a place where everything is concluded suggests a reliance on digital communication, which may contribute to the difficulty in face-to-face interactions.

The metaphor of a chrysalis transforming into a butterfly represents hope and the potential for change. The protagonist expresses a belief that they can become more socially successful ('mote makuru' meaning to be very popular or to attract others) if they try harder. However, there's a recurring theme of self-doubt and the harsh reality reflected in the mirror, which the protagonist wishes to ignore. The song ends on a note of uncertainty, questioning whether the hope for a different tomorrow is just a dream. The struggle between self-perception and reality, and the yearning for personal growth, are central to the song's message.