Lotus Mix

Another day goes by I'm walking on my own
Knowing that I will get home
And only be able to listen the tick of the clock
While I'm sitting in the couch
While I'm looking out the window
Another hour goes by
And I find myself praying for it to let me go
No, but it doesn't stop does it?
Stabbing my bleeding heart with
Beats in my chest, there will be no rest
And I'll stay forever just being a mess
I need a recess and nevertheless
Everyday I can not see no progress
Because I look out my window and
The Sun shines outside, but it rains in here
Pushed you away from me, and now I want you near
All these memories live in my head

I see you
In every corner, on the walls
In every letter, on my thoughts
In every road in every valley
In every lane in every cross
I'm trying not to come across
As the one who doesn't move on
But I can not really stop grieving this loss
So I wonder what's actually wrong with me
Is this who I am supposed to be?
Or maybe I'm stuck in here willingly
Either way I don't know what's going to happen
And that's what is gently killing me
Perhaps I'm tired and lost at sea
From the outside you'll look at me and disagree
But trust me, in my eyes the demons hide
And they've told me that I will never be free
The Sun shines outside but it rains in here
Pushed you away from me and now I want you here

All these memories live in my head
I see you
You know that song they never heard
Cause I was a little too hurt
I listen to it everyday
I'm trying not to fall away
But it happens anyway
All these voices fade away

Oh no
The Sun shines outside
But it rains in here (if you were here in my arms)
Pushed you away from me
And now I need you here (I think you would understand)
All these memories
Live in my head (that my heart's beating fast)
I see you (because it want so)
Another day goes by I'm walking on my own
Knowing that I will get home
And only be able to listen the tick of the clock
While I'm sitting in the couch
While I'm looking out the window
Another hour goes by
And I find myself praying for it to let me go
One, two, there, four

I find myself now drowning trying to breathe
Every little thing I thought that made me happy made me quit
Now, days are longer nights are shorter in every corner
My mind is gone
And I won't try to do my best about it
Crying, shouting, screaming, smiling, feeling like a disappointment
I let me down I've got no crown and I cannot help it
But my heart broke
Hope for a new day?
I'm sorry that was yesterday
Would it be ok if I cried?

In every way
I cannot find myself again
Do I have a confession to make?
Now, the second verse starts and it falls apart
Because my eyes are just wide shut and not a tear has fallen from them
Some people might say that I am just insensitive
So I guessed I lied in the fucking hook didn't I?
I feel the weight of the tears I left behind
And every single of those moments in which I have felt abandoned

Now all I know is I have a void inside
I have to fill this hole
But now I
Hope for a new day?
I'm sorry that was yesterday
Would it be ok if I cried?
In every way
I cannot find myself again
Do I have a confession to make?
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
Would it be ok if I cried?
I'm sorry
I'm sorry I don't want to live inside a lie
And I'm sorry

I'm sorry would it be ok if I cry?
I'm sorry
I just
Hope for a new day?
I'm sorry that was yesterday
Would it be ok if I cried?
In every way
I can't seem to find myself again
Do I have a confession to make?
I do

I'm trying
Not to fall

Every day I look at the sky
If everything's blue
Then I don't know why
It's harder to try
I'll start to deny

That I think I'm not the kind of guy
That will not look you in the eye
Or that's just not willing to try
To fight for his dreams and
For whatever that he calls his life
Wait
Wait
Wait

We'll start again now
Have you listened to me?
Did you listen to what I just said?
Or were you too busy just thinking
About all the things that are stuck in your head?
It's hard enough to move ahead
So I hope that my heart knows the way
'Cause it seems that everything I actually do
Is to push all my people away

I'm trying not to fall
But nothing helps at all
'Cause the thing I do best
Is keep my ghosts close to my chest

Every day I look at the sky
If everything's grey
Then everything's fine
It's easier to try
I will not deny
That I know that I'm the kind of guy
That's going to look you in the eye
Or that's always willing to try
To give up his dreams and whatever he calls his life
Now bang bang bang
Is the sound that's in your head
All this laughing and the thinking that you will keep to the bed
Just to wake up the next morning and be scared of looking up
Because every single moment of your day
Will be just like the times that you had
No!

I'm trying not to fall
Now nothing helps at all
'Cause the thing I do best
Is keep my ghosts close to my chest
(Yeah yeah)
I'm trying not to fall
No now
Now nothing hurts at all
'Cause the thing I do best
Is keep my ghosts close to my chest