Eyelids

You packed your shit up and dammit I miss us
Maybe a hiccup or maybe a mistrust
It’s hard to share without falling to pieces
And you don’t care I know it’s all on me

And now I’ve gotta few women
Swimming in my bed
None of them are you I understand
But why
Is this so easy for you, does it destroy you?

Don’t paint me out to be
Anything that could never be your everything, I
Don’t like this no I don’t buy it
Push me to the side just another night of silence
Tear me down terribly
I can see that I'm being left out to bleed, I
Won’t fight this, I’ll just keep quiet
Everything is fine when I hide behind my eyelids

I know I’ve been pathetic, I know it’s embarrassing
Grab me the kerosene, I’ll pour it on everything
This shits gonna bury me, I’ll watch it all burn

And I’ve been acting on emotion, damn
Everybody sees it I’ve been falling down
Lost a lot of friends another falling out
Dug another hole that I’ll be crawling out of

And now I’ve got a few women
I’ve been swimming inside
Anything to get you off my mind, but why
Is this like nothing to you
How do I get through to you?

I’ve been taking longer strides
Without you right here by my side
But why
Is this so easy for you, does it destroy you?

Don’t paint me out to be
Anything that could never be your everything, I
Don’t like this no I don’t buy it
Push me to the side just another night of silence
Tear me down terribly
I can see that I'm being left out to bleed, I
Won’t fight this, I’ll just keep quiet
Everything is fine when I hide behind my eyelids

So don't you dare say that were ok
You took the hand that pulled you out of the gray
But you won't admit, and that's all I get
So right here we sit with disdain on our lips