Disgrace

I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
I try new things, but I can't change
I pray forgiveness for my ways
I wish that you would call me back
But you left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
Left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead

Feeling fucked up, I cannot escape
Yeah I'm on the come up, might be something great
Yeah it's finally time for me to make statements
But, if I'm being honest, I hate this
Yeah I never wanna speak dishonestly
Yeah I never thought I'd see this side of me
But I've been getting wasted every night
Can't bare being alive

I try so hard to numb the pain
You found yourself, I can't relate
I sabotage, burn everything
I don't want this no

I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
I try new things, but I can't change
I pray forgiveness for my ways
I wish that you would call me back
But you left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
Left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead

Yeah let down the ones I depend on
I can't bare this I might end it all now
Suicide note for everyone that I sinned on
Let the water take me tonight
I try so hard just to please you
Sometimes I wish I could be you
Normal life, yeah I want it right back
And I, might make this my last time now

I try so hard to numb the pain
You found yourself, I can't relate
I sabotage, burn everything
I don't want this no

I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
I try new things, but I can't change
I pray forgiveness for my ways
I wish that you would call me back
But you left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
Left me in the darkness
I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead