Already Numb (feat. Egzod & Synymata)

Josh Rubin's 'Already Numb,' featuring Egzod and Synymata, delves into the depths of emotional desensitization and the struggle to connect with one's feelings. The song's lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who has been hurt so many times that they have become numb to their emotions. The opening lines, 'I can see the warning signs / I try to hide it, so I tell you that I'm fine,' suggest a facade of normalcy, masking the internal turmoil and pain. This theme of hiding true feelings is a recurring motif throughout the song, highlighting the difficulty of expressing vulnerability.

The chorus, 'I still hold you / But I feel nothing / Hurt me so I know it's real,' captures the essence of emotional numbness. The protagonist is so detached from their feelings that they need physical pain to remind them of their humanity. This detachment is further emphasized by the line, 'Don't wait for me / You'll break slowly / The damage is already done / I'm already numb,' which suggests a sense of hopelessness and resignation. The protagonist acknowledges that their emotional state is beyond repair, urging their partner not to wait for a change that will never come.

The final verse, 'I can't promise that I’ll change / I've been hurt so much that I'm one with the pain,' encapsulates the song's central theme of being consumed by past traumas. The imagery of 'avoiding shelter just to stand out in the rain' symbolizes a self-destructive tendency to embrace pain rather than seek comfort. This poignant portrayal of emotional numbness and the struggle to feel anything at all resonates deeply, making 'Already Numb' a powerful exploration of the human condition and the impact of repeated emotional wounds.