Afantasia

In 'Afantasia,' Jotavenoy delves into the emotional and psychological turmoil of living with aphantasia, a condition where one cannot visualize images in their mind. The song's lyrics poignantly express the frustration and sorrow of not being able to recall or imagine the face of a loved one. The opening lines, 'Lembro-me / Cada coisa que fiz / Não sei por que / Perdi o seu rosto,' set the stage for a journey through the depths of memory and the void left by the inability to visualize.

The chorus, 'Mas tá aqui / Só não consigo ver / Tá bem aqui / Dentro das profundezas / Das minhas memórias,' highlights the paradox of knowing that the memory exists but being unable to access it visually. This creates a sense of loss and longing, as the narrator grapples with the reality that their dreams and memories are 'cegos' (blind). The repetition of 'Eu quero sonhar / Eu quero chorar / Eu quero ver / Eu quero imaginar' underscores the deep desire to experience the world in a way that feels complete and fulfilling.

Jotavenoy's lyrics also touch on the existential questions that arise from this condition. Lines like 'Será que já esteve lá? / Será que já te vi passar / Nos meu sonhos' reflect a profound uncertainty about the nature of memory and reality. The song's emotional climax is reached with the repeated lament, 'Mas não consigo mais te ver / E isso só me faz sofrer,' capturing the pain of this invisible barrier. 'Afantasia' is a heartfelt exploration of the human need for connection and the anguish of feeling disconnected from one's own mind and memories.