Ben Her Zaman Sana Aşıktım

Kalben's song 'Ben Her Zaman Sana Aşıktım' (I Have Always Loved You) is a poignant exploration of enduring love set against the backdrop of a harsh and often disappointing world. The repetition of the phrase 'Ben her zaman sana aşıktım' underscores the constancy and depth of the narrator's feelings, suggesting a love that transcends time and circumstance. This love is so profound that it existed even before the narrator met the beloved or knew their name, indicating a sense of destiny or a soulmate connection.

The lyrics also delve into the disillusionment with the world. Phrases like 'Reddettim bu zalim dünyanın cismini, istifa ettim' (I rejected the form of this cruel world, I resigned) and 'Bu adi düzen üzerime devrildi' (This vile order collapsed on me) reflect a rejection of societal norms and the harsh realities of life. The mention of a lottery and the future being painted by traitors adds to the sense of a rigged system, where the odds are stacked against the individual. Despite these challenges, the narrator remains steadfast in their love, seeking solace and meaning in this emotional connection.

The song also touches on social issues and the absurdities of everyday life. The imagery of a pregnant woman not being given a seat on the bus by a rude passenger highlights societal indifference and lack of empathy. The line 'Hayat üç perdelik tatsız bir kabare' (Life is a three-act tasteless cabaret) suggests that life is often a disappointing performance, lacking in genuine joy or fulfillment. Yet, amidst this bleakness, the narrator proposes a childlike innocence and simplicity in their relationship, asking, 'Biz seninle çocuk kalalım mı habire?' (Shall we always remain children together?). This desire to preserve purity and innocence in their love offers a hopeful counterpoint to the otherwise grim depiction of the world.

Kalben's unique musical style, characterized by her emotive voice and introspective lyrics, adds depth to this exploration of love and disillusionment. Her ability to weave personal and societal observations into her music makes 'Ben Her Zaman Sana Aşıktım' a compelling reflection on the power of love to endure and provide meaning in an often harsh and indifferent world.