Envy

Keaton Henson's song 'Envy' delves into the complex emotions that accompany personal success and the often-overlooked struggles that come with it. The lyrics paint a picture of someone who has achieved what they set out to do, yet finds themselves feeling unfulfilled and isolated. The opening lines, 'Thought I'd had enough / Daylight calls my bluff,' suggest a sense of weariness and disillusionment. Despite reaching his goals, the protagonist feels a persistent emptiness, highlighted by the line, 'I'm everything I wanted but I feel the same.' This sentiment is a powerful reminder that external achievements don't necessarily equate to internal happiness.

The recurring theme of isolation is evident throughout the song. Phrases like 'I'm always on my own these days' and 'Don't let me keep you darling, I will be okay' underscore a sense of loneliness. The protagonist seems to be grappling with the realization that success has not brought the companionship or contentment he had hoped for. Instead, it has left him feeling more isolated than ever. This is further emphasized by the line, 'Don't envy what you wouldn't wanna be each day,' which serves as a cautionary message to others who might idolize his success without understanding the personal cost.

Henson also touches on the repetitive and sometimes hollow nature of his creative process. Lines like 'Same chords, new guitar / Write down who you are' and 'Same shit, different day' reflect a sense of monotony and existential questioning. The protagonist is searching for meaning and validation, yet finds himself stuck in a cycle of repetition. This struggle is a poignant commentary on the often unglamorous reality of artistic life, where the pursuit of success can sometimes lead to a loss of personal identity and fulfillment.