Border

You could be an angel, babe
And I wouldn't know it, I wouldn't give a damn, no way
Life has been passin' by, passin' me up
And I'm holdin' on for what it's worth
'Cause all I got is me and my faith (My faith)
That I fall hard, fought to keep down
And it's takin' me far from grounded
But it means somethin' that you're proud

'Cause I fight to stay way too many days
And I drag my feet through too many waves
Bigger than I can swim
Then I start again

Let's leave California
Maybe I need to cross a border
Away from my demons and disorders
Nothin' could catch us if we're runnin' forward
And maybe everyone here would call me crazy
And then you’d tell 'em it's the borderline
No one can catch me if I'm runnin' forward

And my exes wanna see me in a padded room
But I think I need nature and a Valium
You saw past my outbursts and my attitude
So I ain't mad at you, I still ain't mad at you
And if they lock me up would you come visit?
And if they make me stay would you consider stayin'?
And waitin' outside, have you made up your mind?
I'm medicated this time

'Cause I fight to stay way too many days
And I drag my feet through too many waves
Bigger than I can swim
Then I start again

Let's leave California
Maybe I need to cross a border
Away from my demons and disorders
Nothin' could catch us if we're runnin' forward
And maybe everyone here would call me crazy
And then you’d tell 'em it's the borderline

I left to take care of myself
(You don’t fucking understand me bro it’s excruciating, it's excruciating)
But you do not get to lie (Don't lie) you do not get to turn (Don't make it up) (I'm so tired)
The thing that saved my life and (something that I did not do, I'm not crazy) saved me (I'm so tired)
From myself and my explanation for what's been wrong with me my entire life
You do not get to turn that into something for you to use