ヒトガワリ (Hitogawari)

The song 'ヒトガワリ (Hitogawari)' by kikuohana delves into the complexities of a fragile heart struggling to accept love and happiness. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone who feels disconnected from the warmth and joy that love typically brings. The opening lines, '寄り添ってただそばにいて / 時計の針が進んでゆく,' suggest a longing for closeness and companionship, yet the protagonist's body and heart seem unable to embrace this happiness, as indicated by '私の体が受けつけない.' This sets the tone for a narrative of internal conflict and emotional turmoil.

The recurring imagery of wounds and blood, such as '血だらけの愛だけをください' and '血まみれの口づけをください,' symbolizes the deep scars and pain that the protagonist carries. These metaphors highlight a desire for a love that acknowledges and perhaps even shares in their suffering. The phrase '古傷だらけの歪な形' further emphasizes the distorted and damaged state of their heart, suggesting that past traumas have left it misshapen and unable to function normally.

The song also touches on themes of insecurity and the fear of being shattered, as seen in '不安で粉々に割れそうで' and '不安でばらばらに砕けそう.' This fear of breaking apart under the weight of their emotions underscores the protagonist's vulnerability. Despite the yearning for a '壊れた人がわり,' or a broken substitute, there is a sense of resignation and acceptance of their flawed nature, as expressed in 'ひねくれているのです / 仕方がないのです.' The song concludes with a poignant sense of loneliness and longing, encapsulated in 'だから寂しいよずっと,' leaving the listener with a profound understanding of the protagonist's inner world.