Ahora Me Cuesta

La Pestilencia's song 'Ahora Me Cuesta' delves deep into the emotional turmoil of dealing with loneliness and the struggle to maintain a facade of strength. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of waking up each day in a state of harsh solitude, where the protagonist forces themselves to smile and give positive responses, all while battling the urge to cry. This internal conflict is a central theme, as the repeated line 'no querer llorar, eso ahora me cuesta' (not wanting to cry, that now costs me) underscores the difficulty of suppressing their true feelings.

The song also touches on the uncertainty and indecision that come with emotional pain. The lines 'no se si llamar a colgar, no se si me quiero colgar' (I don't know if I should call or hang up, I don't know if I want to hang myself) reflect a deep sense of confusion and despair. This raw honesty about contemplating drastic actions highlights the severity of the protagonist's emotional state. However, there is a glimmer of hope as they mention an 'antidote' that will eventually arrive, suggesting that relief and healing are possible, even if they seem distant at the moment.

Throughout the song, the repetition of certain phrases emphasizes the cyclical nature of the protagonist's struggle. The act of waking up in solitude, pretending to be okay, and fighting the urge to cry is a daily battle. Yet, the mention of learning to walk again hints at the possibility of recovery and growth. The song captures the essence of enduring a painful period while holding onto the hope that things will improve, making it a poignant reflection on human resilience and the quest for emotional healing.