Mindseye

Lauren Ruth Ward's song 'Mindseye' delves into the complexities of emotional relationships and the internal struggles that accompany them. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of a tumultuous relationship, marked by feelings of spiritual bankruptcy and emotional damage. The opening lines, 'Love light distorted / Red coral carpet kind / Spiritual bankruptcy / We can't afford more time,' suggest a relationship that has lost its initial luster and is now fraught with emotional and spiritual depletion. The use of 'red coral carpet' evokes a sense of opulence that has now faded, symbolizing the decline of the relationship.

The recurring question, 'Was I wasting your time? / While I'm in your minds eye?' reflects the singer's deep-seated insecurities and self-doubt. This introspection is further emphasized by the lines, 'Am I wasting my time? / While I'm weighing what's right,' indicating a struggle to find clarity and make sense of the emotional chaos. The 'minds eye' serves as a metaphor for introspection and hindsight, suggesting that the singer is grappling with the past and its impact on the present.

The song also explores themes of jealousy and possessiveness, as seen in the lines, 'The anger starts to pollute all the emotion / Thinking I own something that is not mine / Jealousy applauds me / You are appalled, I landslide.' These emotions lead to a 'landslide,' a metaphor for the collapse of the relationship. The repeated mention of a 'hypothetical lover' adds another layer of complexity, hinting at unfulfilled desires and emotional damage caused by an imagined or idealized relationship. The song's refrain, 'Hindsight of the mindseye,' encapsulates the overall theme of looking back and reflecting on the emotional turmoil and lessons learned.