The Break Up Song

If I saw you in person, I'd beg for you back
Scream, cry about all the good that we had
Your gaslight would burn all night on full blast
While I beg you to listen and hand you your ass
Your backbone would bend so much it would snap
My reason wouldn't fix your past
You made up in your mind, you can only trust yourself
Let me know how that works out for you in your living hell
If you'd just give in to your attainable needs
So us mind-reading fools wouldn't have to kill your disease
And it creeps up on me like a horrible anxiety dream except I'm awake believing
Only breathing is keeping me living

I guess forever to you meant a means to an end
While my forevеr love drug is gifting me bends
I yеll to myself as I'm making your bed
Turn off the house alarm but not the one in my head
I go out to the front yard where we planted fruit trees
That will feed your next lover the vitamin C
I'll be up on that hill with too much to say
Unconditional love making me stay
And I think of that moment, that night, that day, when you beg
Please, come here, please stay
With the ring and a spiel, you moved the motion so I had to steal
You loved me with your good moods, attacked me with your old wounds
I guess your passive aggression was still your best, babe
But it creeped on us and never now seems so obvious
More than ever I'm grieving
Only breathing is keeping us living

You create in your mind that people don't like you
You laugh at the Pisces but truly it haunts you
You think you'd know better, you've done this your whole life
You’re less than insane 'cause you don't expect change
Your comfort and sadness makes life what it is
Can't convince you of your happiness
Even if I did, you'd find cruel of my intent
Make it your home, your victim kingdom
Just you on your throne
No love
No love
Didn't creep up on you
It's a choice you carefully chose
Quit wavering, I can feel you retreating
Only breathing is keeping you living

Okay, here we go
You swear I don't appreciate you
Well, I don't use sex as thank you
Sure bent over backwards to be available for you
I was there from the get-go
I'm not your trophy or your coattail
Fame must have changed your point of view
I'm the writer not the muse
Better pop star than partner
Now you got all you wanted
You can pay off your problems ‘cause your ego won't bargain
Play me like a melody, made me your enemy
'Cause blame gives you the courage to act on infidelity
You're slave for the new
Clumsy love needs a fix
It's not the new one's fault, the captain steers the ship
It's predictable not special, that skin serves its devil
A true lust romance is never successful
We're the perfect example
And all jokes aside, I'm wishing you good life
Remember this time to let it honesty guide
I guess we really did try, it feels right to say goodbye
It's rarer these days, but when you cross my mind
It creeps up on me, that romanticization disease
And then I break on healing
I'm breathing, I'm free, I am living