small

I've been holding the stomach in for so long
Don't even notice I'm doing it anymore
I work out hard, seven days a week
But I don't feel any differently

I wonder if I'll ever change
I don't think I can't live this way

I wake up hating my body
Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?
Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Biting my tongue so my cheeks gonna bleed
I'm killing myself but I don't think that it's helping at all
Trying to be small
Oh-oh, ooh

Walk over me and I'll take it so politely
'Cause I still care what they think, if they like me
I used to smile and show my teeth
Now I don't smile at anything

I wonder if I'll ever change
I don't think I can't live this way

I wake up hating my body
Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?
Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Biting my tongue so my cheeks gonna bleed
I'm killing myself but I don't think that it's helping at all
Trying to be

Everything that makes me sad
A therapist, a punching bag
Wish I could eat and I feel bad
It's where I go to scream
No one's ever listening
And they don't care that it's killing me
As long as I can fucking sing
Life is a dream

But I wake up hating my body
Scared that there's nothing that'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny, quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?
Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Biting my tongue so my cheeks gonna bleed
I'm killing myself but I don't think that it's helping at all
I'm killing myself and I don't think it's health at all
Trying to be small