nineteen

Lil Peep's song 'nineteen' delves into the complexities of young adulthood, the pressures of fame, and the artist's personal struggles with identity and substance use. The lyrics express a sense of conflict between how others perceive him and his own self-image. Lil Peep mentions his face tattoos and black boots as symbols of his unique identity, which may lead to judgment from others, including the insinuation that he is not serious or dedicated. The refrain 'I don't wanna go to school I'on like that' suggests a rejection of conventional paths and a desire to forge his own way, despite societal expectations.

The chorus, 'I don't wanna lose you / I don't wanna hate you,' could be interpreted as a dialogue with a significant other or with his audience, reflecting the fear of losing relationships due to his lifestyle or the way he is perceived. The mention of 'Codeine by the pool while I write raps' points to the use of drugs as a coping mechanism for the pressures of fame and creativity. The line 'Spend money like a fool I'ma make it back' shows a certain recklessness with finances, possibly hinting at the transient nature of success in the music industry.

Lil Peep also touches on the theme of age and perception in the music industry. The lines 'I'ma have a couple million when I'm 21' and 'Shawty told me that she thought that I was 21' reflect the expectations and assumptions made about him due to his success at a young age. The song captures the essence of being caught between youth and adulthood, where external perceptions and internal feelings of self-worth are in constant conflict.