Afraid Of Quiet

Promise I'm fine when I'm not
See my minds spinning round and around with my thoughts
I'm a pot with no lid
And the water is bubbling
Bout to boil over the temperatures doubling

Siren alarm in the night
And I can't stop the noise
'Cause I swear there's a fire somewhere
I can't see it or hear it
Or smell it or taste it
But what if I'm not prepared how will I face it?

If I could calm myself down
Just breath in and breath out
Take a second
Let go of control
Then my mind could be free
But what if I drop the ball for just a moment?
Who would pick it up, a friend or an opponent?

Can't I just calm down
Stop the sound
Take a breath and just relax
But sometimes
I'm afraid of quiet
And what that would mean

Cry a lot, fill a room with my tears
I'm like Alice, except I'm the only mad one here
Wish I could face what is coming
But I keep on running I'm chasing the bunny
Did I wake you, my noise was too loud?
I'm sorry next time I'll turn my grief down
If my turmoil troubles you I can just leave and I'll cry in another room
I swear that I'm in control
Or least I will be

Working on regulation
Affirmation and therapy
Breath control
Become a better me

Can't I just calm down
Stop the sound
Take a breath and just relax
But sometimes
I'm afraid of quiet
And what that would mean

Tossing and turning
The suns in the sky
It's 5am
I can't close my eyes
Want to turn off
Just have some peace
White noise is here
And I can't sleep

Tossing and turning
The suns in the sky
It's 5am
I can't close my eyes
Want to turn off
Just have some peace
White noise is here
And I can't sleep

Tossing and turning
The suns in the sky
It's 5am
I can't close my eyes
Want to turn off
Just have some peace
White noise is here
And I can't sleep

I swear that I'm in control or least I will be
I am ruler of my mind and it will bow
To me!
To me!
But sometimes
I'm afraid of Quiet
And what that would